I m so pissed at myself.... for depending so much on others all my life long.
I m worried that i will be a bad example for my daughter.
I hate the fact that im lazy and im amazed and jealous at others who can do it and im not able to. Kudos to all single moms and super moms.
I m just plainly irritated and think im a BIG LOSER like my bro said...
I m so sorry if i have bored the few readers of my blog with such an annoying post but i really have no other place to put my thoughts. So thanx for bearing with me.
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Hello friend, glad to see u venting ur feelings somewhere and sad to see that ur hurting.Let's go line by line.
ReplyDeletePissed off: Sometimes that's a good thing. It makes u more determined to do something positive.But if it puts u down, then u need to figure a way out.
Depending on people sometimes is needed. ur not superwoman, nobody is.That's life.u need help today,tomorrow someone needs ur help.and that brings meaning to ur life too. so cheer up.
Bad example? Right now, u are there for ur daughter 24/7, day in day out and if she could talk, she would say how happy she is to have u taking care of her, teaching her and making her a happy and wonderful baby.unlike some babies who have to be in daycare and miss mom and dad and everything they can provide them.so be proud,dear. U r doing a great job.
If u were lazy, u would have stayed back in Chennai, so u were brave and determined to make it for ur family.Nobody is perfect and no one mom is the same.Not everyone's life circumstances are the same.Not everyone has the same experience.We are all different in so many ways.Each one does the same thing in a different way suitable to their individual needs. So, since u are a new mommy, u just need to take one step at a time.Don't try to do too much. it will come to u in time. Right now, try to accomplish something small.when u have done that u will feel happy and be more determined to try out another task.To me, I think u have accomplished a lot, just by taking care of Jenna.she is so lively and learning something everyday.Keep a journal too of all the tasks around u. every single thing. then u will see what u have done and what more u can do.
Brothers can be real mean and a pain in the u know what.hahahha.so don't really take it to heart.since I don't know the specifics , I can say this to u. Look within urself and see ur life from when u were a little naughty girl and to now being a mom. Where is the loser?Do u feel like a loser? why? what accomplishment will make u feel like a winner?U don't become a loser just because someone tells u so. If u are happy and those around u are happy, (whether u are working or not)u are definitely not a loser. ANyway in life, u lose some, u win some. SO chill, girl.
So , girl, go check out ur orkut fans page.WHy do u have so many fans? Because u are a big loser?? U have something that people love u for and want to be ur friends, so cheer up and be positive. Wake up each morning with a prayer and a smile.Wake up and see Jenna's and Jamil's face and smile. U will feel great and have a great day. My motto, Face ur problems with a smile. Bye for now. U can chat with me anytime.
wow.. anitha ,thanx a lot... that really makes me feel so much better...i guess whenever i feel down i can read ur comment here..it really made my day.thanx again and like jamil ur really my GODMOTHER
ReplyDeleteHey... ur brother is a stupid da,,, dont believe wat he said.. he is a idiot.. poda dog arfaj.. u have hurted her...
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