PISSED OFF

I m so pissed at myself.... for depending so much on others all my life long.

I m worried that i will be a bad example for my daughter.

I hate the fact that im lazy and im amazed and jealous at others who can do it and im not able to. Kudos to all single moms and super moms.

I m just plainly irritated and think im a BIG LOSER like my bro said...

I m so sorry if i have bored the few readers of my blog with such an annoying post but i really have no other place to put my thoughts. So thanx for bearing with me.

DIAPERING DIFFICULTY

I really dont know how to diaper Jenna,if ur wondering what is so difficult in diapering a baby.. its not the diapering which is difficult ,its the task of making her lay still for putting on a diaper... Nowadays she resists diapering so much that it is driving me nuts.. once i lay her to put on a diaper ,she sits up from her laying position and starts crawling away from me...believe me it takes me atleast 5 minutes to put on a diaper for her.. i give her toy to play with while diapering but within a minute she throws it away and will flee immediately... any mommy out there reading this please give me tips on how to put on a diaper for an active baby..?It will help me big time and many other mommies too...

ISSUES

People who see me always comment about one thing thats my weight, until i was pregnant they used to tell me im very thin and i will disappear if i dont eat properly , believe me i used to eat well but i was one of the very few lucky ones who never seem to put on weight .... pregnancy packed a few pounds say 30 pounds but it was never an issue because i was not weighing the normal weight for my height. Post partum I shed nearly 20 pounds...in a month.Now people are still commenting about my weight like'' u have put on weight..blah blah......,some people go to the extent of saying i have become fat which is totally absurd because i weigh only 124 pounds which is normal weight for my height.... i seriously have a doubt, all along my life they said i was very thin and finally when i gained weight they say im fat.. phew.. do they expect me to be a size zero or what?I m happy with my weight and i love my post partum body.When i see my old photos i feel i looked bad then........ so all you people next time u see a new mommy who is finding difficult to shed those last few pounds,first of all,dont comment about their weight,and dont say u have become fat... its a very sensitive issue for many...but for me i really dont care.